I am having a really happy season right now.
It's called "I don't work at a bank, and I don't have 10 page papers to worry about and it's going to be Christmas time so soon, and let's eat turkey and be thankful for everything we've got" season.
When I graduated in May, I think my heart started to warm up and I thought God would magically produce a perfect boyfriend for me who wore some kind of uniform and would like to go running with me, and he would be a good leader, and push me to greatness, and he would be goofy and make me laugh like a cartoon.
And then when it didn't happen, I was like, what the hell, God? Help a brotha out. I'm ready to get crackin' on a family and homeschool some little kids and grow a garden.
But after a long, hard summer I think I am back to a place of medium. Like for 2 years, marriage grossed me out, and then for six months, marriage was all I wanted, and now I want marriage in a medium way that is really easy to wait for, and to barely care if it really happens or not, because I will find things to do with the days that my maker gives me.
I am having a 10 out of 10 week. My gym owner is one of my regulars at Sbux, and he has been giving me, Emily, and Krista free personal training, which has drastically raised my serotonin or whatever. It is a good replacement for my Crossfit life. And now it is snowing and gorgeous outside, and I'm starting to get almost a full night's sleep most nights, and I love my unimportant little retail job.
Everything seems manageable again, and it is such a blessing from God.
I will enjoy this season of rest while it lasts.
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