You're a fighter forever, until one day, you're not, and there's nothing to throw punches at because someone stood up beside you. I wish this was better news.
Tell my love to wreck it all, cut out all the ropes and let me fall.
Bon Iver
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Wednesday, May 07, 2014
We meet in the kitchen by accident, taking pills in the dark, trying not to wake our family. My sister selects Tylenol, and I take 3 ibuprofen with a side of Mylanta and a shot of Captain.
We wonder what will happen.
We lock the door, and wonder what's next. I wonder what's next for me, for her, for John C. Reilly, for the state of Utah, for the valves in my car, for the valves in my heart, for the emails I'll get and I'll give, for what our hair will do in the summer-Illinois-humidity. In pursuit of God's best, in reluctance we try to sacrifice everything else.
In one year these problems will be a joke. Maybe. We'll still be moving forward unless murder. Unless tornadoes. Unless rapture. Unless it works out for true love or fake love or job opportunities and new addresses. To new life that gets newer and more complex in the changing biology of choices.
We wonder what will happen.
We lock the door, and wonder what's next. I wonder what's next for me, for her, for John C. Reilly, for the state of Utah, for the valves in my car, for the valves in my heart, for the emails I'll get and I'll give, for what our hair will do in the summer-Illinois-humidity. In pursuit of God's best, in reluctance we try to sacrifice everything else.
In one year these problems will be a joke. Maybe. We'll still be moving forward unless murder. Unless tornadoes. Unless rapture. Unless it works out for true love or fake love or job opportunities and new addresses. To new life that gets newer and more complex in the changing biology of choices.
Tuesday, May 06, 2014
quotes Friday Tuesday
Me: I'm completely sober right now, but I can't get my iPod out of it's case to hook it up to my speakers and make it a white noise machine.
Roy: Bring it here. I'll help ya out Margie.
Me: Can that be my other nick name?
Roy: Do you like eggs? And also, do you like solving complex murders?
"I hate to namedrop, but I've been in Scottsdale."
-Judy, leaving me a voicemail
"I should carry contact solution and cases around with me, but then I guess I'd have to wear a fanny pack."
-Trox
"It's just like, how many Mongolian Empire leaders can you know?"
-Philip, watching Jeopardy
Roy: Bring it here. I'll help ya out Margie.
Me: Can that be my other nick name?
Roy: Do you like eggs? And also, do you like solving complex murders?
"I hate to namedrop, but I've been in Scottsdale."
-Judy, leaving me a voicemail
"I should carry contact solution and cases around with me, but then I guess I'd have to wear a fanny pack."
-Trox
"It's just like, how many Mongolian Empire leaders can you know?"
-Philip, watching Jeopardy
Saturday, May 03, 2014
Wish I coulda been in my 20's in the 80's.
Wish I'd never met you.
Wish I could reconcile, wish I could sit still.
Wish I'd be strong and tall and stop spilling coffee on my shirts.
Love that I can't sleep, love that there are new mysteries left.
Love that I met you.
Love that I keep standing up to leave the room and that my legs keep carrying me forward.
Love that I'm messy and emotional and still feel something.
And Lord have mercy on me.
Wish I'd never met you.
Wish I could reconcile, wish I could sit still.
Wish I'd be strong and tall and stop spilling coffee on my shirts.
Love that I can't sleep, love that there are new mysteries left.
Love that I met you.
Love that I keep standing up to leave the room and that my legs keep carrying me forward.
Love that I'm messy and emotional and still feel something.
And Lord have mercy on me.
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