at this moment
I find myself in a similar situation to Darrell. We both commit all the hours of our days, so that we don't have to find ourselves alone. We work too hard, so we don't have to hear ourselves think.
He is getting thinner, and I am not getting thinner. But we will both wake up in a few months and say, where did the time go. And I am fine with that.

Slow progression in a right direction. I'm trying to kill the time and kill it dead.
I picture snow falling, and plastering almost fully real smiles on my face at all times. I picture finishing Spring semester only to hurry back to the farm, hurry to break my arms around the ones I love. I'm getting to be happy. Or as Brazilian Ana said to me once, "I'm getting love, Rachel."


"My life flashed before my eyes Liz, and I had one huge regret."
"What?"
"I should have worked more."
-a paraphrase of Jack on 30 Rock. All my life is 30 Rock episodes.