And this love isn't good enough for sorrow or inspiration...

I could start at the beginning.
Yesterday I was working at Caitlin's Starbucks because they were short and I needed the hours. It was good, they actually let me bar and this guy who looked like Jack from LOST was running the drive through. It was a little unnerving, because everytime he said something like, "We need to rebrew coffee" I just took him so serious because you just do everything Jack says. He's our leader.
Anyway, he was Presbyterian and when no one else was around we were sort of talking about it, and I told him we'd moved here to start the Rock and he's like, "Oh, so you're a Christian, do you mind if I ask you what you believe gets you into Heaven?" And I freaked out cuz a customer walked in the door and so I just leaned over and whispered, "I am saved by grace." And his face turned into the sunlight. "AMEN! SISTER. If there was anything you could have said!" And he gave me a high five and that was that. We didn't say anything else about it and I left at the end of my shift.
Also I saw Lisa (a nurse I used to work with from the hospital). And it really just bought back a flood of memories and raw emotion that I'd forgotten I'd had. I started asking her all these questions. I want to go back and see John and Joe and Alex. A part of my heart belongs at that hospital and I left it there, and it's really hard to know what to do about that.

So I worked at Caitlin's store and then went to meet Celisse at her house now that she's home but there was a huge storm out there and I kept getting lost cuz it's the freakin' west side. Ha ha ha. We were kind of both pissed off for different reasons while we ate Chinese food together. I think that's why we're such good friends. Cuz we can hang out pissed off and be totally fine with it.
Then Jessi calls and tells me that Shonna's best friend Maren died, which is heartbreaking. She is just only a little bit older than me, and Shonna's always talking about her, and which college she was going to, and being diebetic. I felt like I knew the girl, and it's just one more reminder that life is short, and you never know when it's going to be. Never.

So I closed the store because they needed help, and then opened this morning which was creepy but endurable. And I realize that I would just pick to work all the time, and is that healthy, and what does it say about me.
There is so much more that is going on right now, but I'm just going to call it a night and eat some spaghetti.