It was once so easy to just look at them and fall in love with them. Boys or girls. These days I feel a little ripped off by how long it takes me to trust someone even through their faults.
But I guess that's life.

I'm in much confusion about what is stable in my life. Everyone's always talking about how loosely you should hold onto everything. That God has to be in control. Which, I agree with, but what in the world am I going to hold onto so that I don't go careening in some other direction. I have no gravity. I have cold water and shaky thoughts and credit card debt and not enough coffee in the world to get me out of all of this.