Here's some truth from the freeway. (far too early in the morning to be considered sensical)

I would like to step away from this whole "being a Christian thing". It sounds so easy to just do that, you know. I always have these five-minute-fantasies about moving away, and starting a new life to party and have fun and forget who I am.
But in the end, I know I can't. I know that Christ is sewn into my skin, and that no matter how much I don't like God all the time, I still love Him and that starting a new life would have my old problems tagging right along. You can't just forget about a relationship you have with someone who invisibly holds you every night. You can't just tell God to go away. It doesn't work.

For better, or for worse.