"I want to show you how I love you, but there's nothing there." Spoon

My room is a mess, and my suitcase is still out, from house sitting. I'm just going to fill it back up.

I'm taking a horror movie English class that is focusing on gender. Reading the 700 page Mysteries of Udolpho. Already have my Spanish homework done. Everything is strangely in control. My sense of calm is probably because I've been on top of my Bible readings. My dad got me a Kindle for Christmas, which was an amazing, extravagant gift. But for the first time in my life, I'm reading the Bible everyday, and the Kindle is making it so easy. If I had known about this sooner, I would have sprung for one a long time ago.
Now I just have to work harder at Prayer. Prayer is a hard one for me, for some reason, because I know God already can read my mind, He knows what's going on. Also, because of predestination, I never think that my prayers are going to change things. But I know that prayer is good, and we're supposed to do it, so I'm working on it.

My goals for this semester:
-find a job that doesn't constantly make me feel like a failure (I am a very hard worker, this shouldn't be that hard! ha)
-get out of debt (so I have savings if I get fired. also, ha)
-pray out loud more
-pass Spanish with a B

I know I have other cool ideas that I will remember later.

Lastly...my dad sometimes will try to understand football, for my mom, which is pretty cute. But if I marry some dude who loves football, I just can't like it for him. I've tried to do like it way too many times by now.